Garret keeps telling me that I need to let my anger at Tim and Amy go. He is right. There is no good reason to hold on to it. But I have been angry for a very long time. The other day I think I realized why. I am very tired of letting people tell me that I am not good enough. I think I am angry not because Amy makes me feel like I'm not good enough but because sometimes I believe it. But I'm done with that. Garret is right. I need to let go of some of this anger. I'm good enough. I have proven it and I continue to prove it every day of my life. I have overcome enough in my life to know that. I come from a family without college graduates. family with few high school graduates. And yet here I am. I have graduated high school and I am attending college. I have been successful. I am halfway through my third year. I get good grades and I love what I am studying. I am a good person. Despite my feelings of anger I didn't act on them. Over and over again I had opportunities to act on my anger and I didn't. I had help of course but I did it. There weren't always other people around. I could have acted on them. I am a good friend to the people in my life who mean something to me. I have a boyfriend who loves me. I have a successful relationship.
I am beautiful, I am compassionate, I am intelligent, I am passionate. I am a good teacher, a good student, a good daughter, a good sister, a good friend, a good girlfriend and a good person.
I am enough. I will not let anyone tell me I'm not anymore. I will not let anyone make me believe I am not good enough ever again.
Thursday, December 31, 2009
Monday, December 28, 2009
Day Off #2
It is 1:40 am on December 28th. But I haven't gone to bed yet so of course I am still thinking like today is Sunday, December 27th. It has been a very good day. I woke up around noon, made cinnamon rolls in the oven and curled up on my couch with a blanket, a pillow and a good book. I read till about 2 and then wasted my time on the internet. At 3 Garret got up and asked me to cuddle. I love laying in bed with him and cuddling in the morning. It is so intimate. Everything is so soft, warm and good smelling. We cuddled until about 4 when I demanded that he get up because he was clearly trying to continue to sleep and in the process putting me back to sleep. I was determined to fix my sleep schedule after waking up Saturday at 3 pm and not going to sleep that night until 5 am. I am pretty sure that I needed the 14 hours of sleep I got Saturday but I need to be able to awake up at 11 on Monday since I have to return to work.
Anyway, after I got Garret up and dressed we watched a couple episodes of House before going to the Harvest House for food. Then when we got back I played around on the computer putting more music on my Ipod while he played Wii. We have pretty much spent today a lot like we spent yesterday. Hanging out and relaxing. It is much more enjoyable than the 9 days in a row I spent at work I can tell you that right now.
I'm not so sure I am ready to go back to work even though I know I will have to eventually. I have been hearing that a lot of people are leaving. Zack is being deployed. Shana is changing jobs. I guess Amanda and Ember have either found new jobs or are looking and Andy mentioned looking for a new job. All of my favorite people are leaving. It is going to be a very different place once they are all gone. Not to mention the amount of extra hours I will be working to make up for the fact that we are losing employees again. I left them a note asking them to work me Wednesdays, Fridays and weekends once the semester starts. I hope they read it and take it seriously. I have 3 English classes next semester and I know two was hard this semester. There is a lot of reading involved when you are taking two English classes and two education classes. Now I will be taking three English classes and an Education class. The English classes tend to be heavier on reading than the Ed classes. At least the third English is writing poetry. Maybe there won't be as much reading? My point here is that reading is hard to do if the time to do it in isn't there and if I am working a lot it might be difficult to get the reading done.
This is obviously no time to be worrying about that now though. I think I am going to end this entry here and just continue to bask in how awesome my day off has been. I hope there are more days like this over my break so that I don't go crazy or get too tired before school starts again. I like being well-rested.
Anyway, after I got Garret up and dressed we watched a couple episodes of House before going to the Harvest House for food. Then when we got back I played around on the computer putting more music on my Ipod while he played Wii. We have pretty much spent today a lot like we spent yesterday. Hanging out and relaxing. It is much more enjoyable than the 9 days in a row I spent at work I can tell you that right now.
I'm not so sure I am ready to go back to work even though I know I will have to eventually. I have been hearing that a lot of people are leaving. Zack is being deployed. Shana is changing jobs. I guess Amanda and Ember have either found new jobs or are looking and Andy mentioned looking for a new job. All of my favorite people are leaving. It is going to be a very different place once they are all gone. Not to mention the amount of extra hours I will be working to make up for the fact that we are losing employees again. I left them a note asking them to work me Wednesdays, Fridays and weekends once the semester starts. I hope they read it and take it seriously. I have 3 English classes next semester and I know two was hard this semester. There is a lot of reading involved when you are taking two English classes and two education classes. Now I will be taking three English classes and an Education class. The English classes tend to be heavier on reading than the Ed classes. At least the third English is writing poetry. Maybe there won't be as much reading? My point here is that reading is hard to do if the time to do it in isn't there and if I am working a lot it might be difficult to get the reading done.
This is obviously no time to be worrying about that now though. I think I am going to end this entry here and just continue to bask in how awesome my day off has been. I hope there are more days like this over my break so that I don't go crazy or get too tired before school starts again. I like being well-rested.
Saturday, December 26, 2009
Christmas and Anniversary
Today is Saturday and I have done pretty much nothing all day. And it feels absolutely wonderful! Yesterday was my first day off after working 9 days in a row at Staples. I have been too tired to do anything but sleep thus why I haven't done much writing lately. I enjoyed having yesterday off but it was of course a lot of family stuff and I still had to wake up early to open presents.
I had such a good Christmas. I was woken up by Nick around 8:30 and we opened presents at about 9. I got an Ipod! I was very excited despite having told mom not to get me one. I am happy to have it. I also got new clothes and accessories for the Ipod and much more. I had a ton of stuff to drag home with me that night. After opening presents I spent the day putting music on my Ipod before having supper and then going to the movies to see Sherlock Holmes with Nick and Garret. It was a pretty good movie. I would give it a 7 out of 10. Solid. And funny. After that Garret and I went home to celebrate out 3 year anniversary together and open our presents from each other. He did an excellent job. He got me a season of House, a gift card to the Harvest House and a beautiful necklace. I'll post a picture of it so no worries there dear readers. We spent the rest of the night relaxing, enjoying our gifts and gorging ourselves on the many sweets our families sent home with us.
We went to bed at around 1 am or at least I did. Garret didn't go to bed until like 3 or 4. Then we slept in today until 3 in the afternoon. I have been so tired the last few days that it felt amazing to waste most of my day sleeping. So far today we have eaten supper, done a load of laundry, put away most of our gifts, put away the clothes we washed last weekend that have been waiting for us to pick them up, took the trash out(there was a lot of it!, watched House, Garret has played Wii and I have been online posting pictures, editing Mel's story and writing this. Not a very busy day. A rather fun and relaxing day overall. I hope the rest of the day is as nice.
Tomorrow should be good too since I don't have to work till Monday. This is awesome!!
I had such a good Christmas. I was woken up by Nick around 8:30 and we opened presents at about 9. I got an Ipod! I was very excited despite having told mom not to get me one. I am happy to have it. I also got new clothes and accessories for the Ipod and much more. I had a ton of stuff to drag home with me that night. After opening presents I spent the day putting music on my Ipod before having supper and then going to the movies to see Sherlock Holmes with Nick and Garret. It was a pretty good movie. I would give it a 7 out of 10. Solid. And funny. After that Garret and I went home to celebrate out 3 year anniversary together and open our presents from each other. He did an excellent job. He got me a season of House, a gift card to the Harvest House and a beautiful necklace. I'll post a picture of it so no worries there dear readers. We spent the rest of the night relaxing, enjoying our gifts and gorging ourselves on the many sweets our families sent home with us.
We went to bed at around 1 am or at least I did. Garret didn't go to bed until like 3 or 4. Then we slept in today until 3 in the afternoon. I have been so tired the last few days that it felt amazing to waste most of my day sleeping. So far today we have eaten supper, done a load of laundry, put away most of our gifts, put away the clothes we washed last weekend that have been waiting for us to pick them up, took the trash out(there was a lot of it!, watched House, Garret has played Wii and I have been online posting pictures, editing Mel's story and writing this. Not a very busy day. A rather fun and relaxing day overall. I hope the rest of the day is as nice.
Tomorrow should be good too since I don't have to work till Monday. This is awesome!!
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
Visiting
It is Tuesday night and I am at my dad's. I just opened presents and hung out with my family here. It was great to see them all. I missed them. I wish I could visit more often and for longer. I have to start finding more opportunities to get here even if dad and Kelly are working for most of the time that I am here. It is just not fair or right to not visit.
Monday, December 21, 2009
Not a Real Post
I know I haven't written a new post in forever. I would write a real post tonight but I have to pack and wrap gifts for tomorrow. I am going to work from 8-4 and then I am driving to my dad's to visit for the night. Then it is back Wednesday so I can work from 2-10. I am so tired. I hope that I can make it through the next 3 work days without collapsing. No guarantees!
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Will Life Ever Not Be Busy?
I haven't been home much the last couple of days which is why I haven't written a post. I had finals due Tuesday and then a doctor's appointment and Christmas shopping to finish. Very close to being finished with that. Just my step-dad left. Woo! Also very close to having a less crowded apartment. Yay! Plus I will be able to put up Christmas decorations soon. I would have put them up already but Garret suggested that I wait. It is probably a good idea.
I have to work a lot the next few days. A lot a lot. I am looking at a nine day stretch. All eight hour days pretty much and no days off until Christmas. I am tired just thinking about it. At least I'll be making some good money. Right? I think I am going to go shower now and get to bed. I'm tired and I have work again tomorrow.
I have to work a lot the next few days. A lot a lot. I am looking at a nine day stretch. All eight hour days pretty much and no days off until Christmas. I am tired just thinking about it. At least I'll be making some good money. Right? I think I am going to go shower now and get to bed. I'm tired and I have work again tomorrow.
Monday, December 14, 2009
Because He Loves Me
Wednesday night while I was t Lindsey's for dinner Garret read my blog. I don't know if that spawned what happened next or not but it seems to have been part of it. He called me while I was there with all kinds of plans for he and I to move out of our apartment. He wanted to talk to Foothills and see if there was a way out of our current lease even if we had to buy our way out and get us a one bedroom somewhere so that we would no longer have to deal with our roommates. We decided to talk to Foothills about it Friday. So we did. Foothills told us that Aimee had already been in to talk to them about getting out of the lease and to look at apartments for her and Tim. We were then informed that if any of us wanted to move out we would simply have to sign the parties moving out off the lease and the remaining people in the apartment would have to consent to paying the new higher rent for the remaining few months. Garret and I decided to talk to Tim and Aimee that night. Except I requested not to be there. I wasn't sure and still am not sure if I should be mad or relieved that they were talking to Foothills. Anyway, Garret talked to them and Tim and Aimee admitted to having been talking to Foothills for three weeks now about moving out. Yep, 3 weeks. Wish they had said something. The three of them decided Tim and Aimee would be moving out, Garret and I would take on the rent for the two bedroom alone (357.50 not bad for a two bedroom) and they would get the cat. They will officially be out of the apartment in January. At the very latest their stuff will be out the 11th. But after Friday I will never have to see them again. Garret even agreed to being there when they move their stuff out so that I don't have to be there.
I'm glad it is over. Glad this is the last week I have to be anywhere near them. Glad it is almost over. Glad to have them signed off the lease and to be out of the room where I had to be near them. Glad to be alone in the library where it is quiet and peaceful. Glad to have a boyfriend who loves me.
I'm glad it is over. Glad this is the last week I have to be anywhere near them. Glad it is almost over. Glad to have them signed off the lease and to be out of the room where I had to be near them. Glad to be alone in the library where it is quiet and peaceful. Glad to have a boyfriend who loves me.
Sunday, December 13, 2009
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
Just Get Out Of My Apartment!
I got some really bad news on Monday that at the time I didn't feel like sharing but now that I have had some time to try and cool down I feel like I need to write about it because I am still massively pissed. My roommates were supposed to go home at the end of this week but now they're not. They are staying until the end of finals week. They are also taking my cat with them and Tim is coming back here a week early. I know that it really shouldn't be a big deal but it is. Mostly because the situation at home is awkward and uncomfortable for me and it involves a lot of me biting back my comments that I really want to make. Now this could be heightened by my angry over them not leaving but I'm pretty sure it isn't. I spend all of my time in my room or the ed center or the library in order to avoid looking at them or being in the same room as them. They must know that the situation really sucks for me since I feel really uncomfortable being in a room with them and they never leave the fucking living room which means I have to walk by them every time I want to eat or pee. But they obviously don't care about my feelings since they obviously had no factor in their decision to stay an entire extra week even though I really need a break.
It wouldn't bother me that they have continued to ignore my feelings and be inconsiderate of me except that I just was really nice to them. I went out and bought them Christmas presents. Really nice Christmas presents. I spent 27 dollars on each of them. All because I thought it would be mean, rude, inconsiderate and would hurt their feelings if I didn't. Garret was right when he told me that I shouldn't bother. They clearly care nothing for me. How can two people be so fucking rude and mean? Garret keeps saying that they aren't doing it on purpose, that they aren't planning on staying here longer just to make me suffer. Well, it feels that way because they sure as hell aren't trying too hard to get away from me. I would have thought that the situation would be uncomfortable for them too. Apparently not. Maybe I should make it a little bit more uncomfortable. Maybe I should cancel the internet. I would cancel the internet, after all by saying they didn't want to help pay for cable they effectively made me cancel the cable, but it would drive Garret bonkers if I did cancel the internet.
They are out in the living room again with their music on. I am so tired of listening to their music. I am very tempted to get the vacuum out and start vacuuming the entire apartment. Try listening to your music then assholes. I don't get why they need to have it on all the time. I really just want it to be quiet. Or to listen to something that doesn't sound like it has been overplayed a hundred and one times over again.
I made peanut butter brownies and used the last of the eggs. It felt good. I hope they need eggs and they find there aren't any. I hope they wanted to make brownies and can't cause there are brownies in the pan.
Tim and Aimee have been crating the cat. When she is attacking them, if she doesn't sop they hold her down and tell her to calm down. Which of course she doesn't because she doesn't like it, and then when she doesn't calm down they lock her in her crate. That is cruel. She never attacks me like she does them and I don't lock her in her crate, ever. Gee, I wonder could there be some correlation there? I hope I get to keep the cat when this is all over. No one will ever hold her down like that again. If someone tried to hold me down the way they hold her down I would bite and scratch too. It scares her. I almost said something when I saw Tim doing it today to her. I almost went out and got the cat and the crate and brought them in my room. I almost told him he could have the crate back when he could promise he wouldn't use it as a punishment again. It shouldn't be a punishment. She gets in there when she goes places. It shouldn't be associated with bad things.
I just hate everything about them right now. I wish they would just go away.
It wouldn't bother me that they have continued to ignore my feelings and be inconsiderate of me except that I just was really nice to them. I went out and bought them Christmas presents. Really nice Christmas presents. I spent 27 dollars on each of them. All because I thought it would be mean, rude, inconsiderate and would hurt their feelings if I didn't. Garret was right when he told me that I shouldn't bother. They clearly care nothing for me. How can two people be so fucking rude and mean? Garret keeps saying that they aren't doing it on purpose, that they aren't planning on staying here longer just to make me suffer. Well, it feels that way because they sure as hell aren't trying too hard to get away from me. I would have thought that the situation would be uncomfortable for them too. Apparently not. Maybe I should make it a little bit more uncomfortable. Maybe I should cancel the internet. I would cancel the internet, after all by saying they didn't want to help pay for cable they effectively made me cancel the cable, but it would drive Garret bonkers if I did cancel the internet.
They are out in the living room again with their music on. I am so tired of listening to their music. I am very tempted to get the vacuum out and start vacuuming the entire apartment. Try listening to your music then assholes. I don't get why they need to have it on all the time. I really just want it to be quiet. Or to listen to something that doesn't sound like it has been overplayed a hundred and one times over again.
I made peanut butter brownies and used the last of the eggs. It felt good. I hope they need eggs and they find there aren't any. I hope they wanted to make brownies and can't cause there are brownies in the pan.
Tim and Aimee have been crating the cat. When she is attacking them, if she doesn't sop they hold her down and tell her to calm down. Which of course she doesn't because she doesn't like it, and then when she doesn't calm down they lock her in her crate. That is cruel. She never attacks me like she does them and I don't lock her in her crate, ever. Gee, I wonder could there be some correlation there? I hope I get to keep the cat when this is all over. No one will ever hold her down like that again. If someone tried to hold me down the way they hold her down I would bite and scratch too. It scares her. I almost said something when I saw Tim doing it today to her. I almost went out and got the cat and the crate and brought them in my room. I almost told him he could have the crate back when he could promise he wouldn't use it as a punishment again. It shouldn't be a punishment. She gets in there when she goes places. It shouldn't be associated with bad things.
I just hate everything about them right now. I wish they would just go away.
Monday, December 7, 2009
Expectations
Watching a Documentary about Polar Bears Trying to Survive on the Melting Ice Floes
That God had a plan, I do not doubt.
But what if His plan was, that we would do better?
By Mary Oliver
That's it. Those two lines are the entirety of the poem. She is right. There are so many horrible thing happening in th world and most of them are caused by humans. Humans being wasteful and not careful. Humans being mean and greedy. Humans being spiteful and bitter. Humans being anything but what they should be. Humans are different from animals because we are self aware and because we can reason and think beyond shelter, food, sleep and sex. According to the bible eating from the tree of knowledge not only got us kicked out of the garden but it also gave us knowledge of good and evil. Well, if that is true than why do we still commit evil acts? We have these great abilities to think and to see ahead but we so seldom use them. What if God really did expect more from us? He probably has every right to.
That God had a plan, I do not doubt.
But what if His plan was, that we would do better?
By Mary Oliver
That's it. Those two lines are the entirety of the poem. She is right. There are so many horrible thing happening in th world and most of them are caused by humans. Humans being wasteful and not careful. Humans being mean and greedy. Humans being spiteful and bitter. Humans being anything but what they should be. Humans are different from animals because we are self aware and because we can reason and think beyond shelter, food, sleep and sex. According to the bible eating from the tree of knowledge not only got us kicked out of the garden but it also gave us knowledge of good and evil. Well, if that is true than why do we still commit evil acts? We have these great abilities to think and to see ahead but we so seldom use them. What if God really did expect more from us? He probably has every right to.
Christmas Shopping- Day 1
I am avoiding doing reading even though I was planning on reading for Poetry first and I like what we are reading right now. I went Christmas Shopping today. WOO! It is so much fun to Christmas shop. I love it. I bought some awesome gifts this year. Dad, Garret and Jason at least are going to love what they are getting. Hopefully I can find equally good things for the people left on my list. I did buy gifts for Aimee and Tim. I ended up spending exactly 27 dollars on both of them. So not bad and it made me feel good to give them gifts. I like giving gifts and I would feel bad if I didn't get them something. I mean, I live with them after all. I might not get along with Aimee but I still live with her. I still feel obligated to get her a gift.
So I did and it felt good to hand Tim the two bags with their gifts in them and say Merry Christmas. It felt really good to leave Walmart with all my bags and know that I got some awesome stuff. I did a little worse than I thought I had though in terms of money. Mostly because I thought I had done really good at Walmart so I picked up a couple more things. Oh well. At least those things I got are done now too.
I am especially excited for Christmas now. I decided to get Garret one bog gift and then a few small ones. So I bought three stockings. One to put Garret's little gifts in, one to put the cat's gifts in and one for me. Not sure if Garret will put stuff in it for me or if I will. I'm not going to worry about that right now. I got Garret's big gift today and filled his stocking with all his little gifts. I would write what they are but Garret will read this. Sorry, not telling.
It is starting to feel a lot more like Christmas already.
So I did and it felt good to hand Tim the two bags with their gifts in them and say Merry Christmas. It felt really good to leave Walmart with all my bags and know that I got some awesome stuff. I did a little worse than I thought I had though in terms of money. Mostly because I thought I had done really good at Walmart so I picked up a couple more things. Oh well. At least those things I got are done now too.
I am especially excited for Christmas now. I decided to get Garret one bog gift and then a few small ones. So I bought three stockings. One to put Garret's little gifts in, one to put the cat's gifts in and one for me. Not sure if Garret will put stuff in it for me or if I will. I'm not going to worry about that right now. I got Garret's big gift today and filled his stocking with all his little gifts. I would write what they are but Garret will read this. Sorry, not telling.
It is starting to feel a lot more like Christmas already.
Sunday, December 6, 2009
Somedays You're Just Not Inspired
There are some days when I really am just not inspired to write. It is on those days that I wonder if it is better for me to write or to not write. It is hard to say. Obviously my writing is at its best when it is inspired but on the other hadn veteran writers tell me it is better to just write. They say that the best writers write everyday no matter what. Especially when they're not inspired because sometimes it is the act of writing itself that inspires us. Other time it is just plain painful. But during those times at least we are learning what works, what doesn't work and practicing breaking out of writer's block.
I have to say that I have seen a major change for the better in my writing since starting this blog. All of my poems feel fresher, vibrant, different and more unique. I feel like I am stretching my voice and my topics. I am enjoying everything that is coming out. Now granted it has been a little while since my last poem but I am writing poems much more regularly than I was. Before I started this blog I went through my documents folder and realized the last poem I had written was last year. I was shocked. It is nice to look through my documents now and see that they are dated much closer together. I think those seasoned writers are right. Sometimes the best way to open up the creative channels is to just write. Even if it does suck.
I have to say that I have seen a major change for the better in my writing since starting this blog. All of my poems feel fresher, vibrant, different and more unique. I feel like I am stretching my voice and my topics. I am enjoying everything that is coming out. Now granted it has been a little while since my last poem but I am writing poems much more regularly than I was. Before I started this blog I went through my documents folder and realized the last poem I had written was last year. I was shocked. It is nice to look through my documents now and see that they are dated much closer together. I think those seasoned writers are right. Sometimes the best way to open up the creative channels is to just write. Even if it does suck.
Friday, December 4, 2009
Can't Sleep
It is Friday. Yay. I have been not better this week. Tuesday I returned to classes and work even though my throat killed and I started coughing. Then Wednesday I started losing my voice and then yesterday I pretty had no voice at all. I called work yesterday and said as you can see I have no voice would it be better for me to come in or stay home. My general manager said to come in. So I did. I should have just stayed home. This morning seems a little better. My throat still hurts, I now have a runny nose and my cough is the same but at least I have some of my voice back. I am very tired of being sick.
I also have a boyfriend who is mad at me. He is mad at me for doing housework even though I am sick. I went to take the trash out Wednesday and since the litter box needed to be changed I did that too and put some dishes away. He was mad cause he said the dishes and the litter box weren't my job and I shouldn't have to do other people's work for them especially since I am sick. He is probably right but I don't care. He needed to be done and since I was up and doing things anyway I figured I might as well do it. He also doesn't what me to have to cook. I offered to make spaghetti and meatballs for us today and he said no. I'm not completely useless yet. I could understand this if I was throwing up or so dizzy I couldn't walk straight but I'm not. And I hate feeling useless.
Mel is supposed to be in Farmington today so I am going to try and hang out with her today. Not sure where she is or how to get a hold of her though since she no longer has her phone. She told me to get on AIM last night but by the time I did she wasn't on. I think I will blame work for that one.
I am all done with my SED class now so I am not planning on going today. I got all my points so there isn't any need to and I probably could use a day to get stuff done around here, try to relax and see Mel. Since I have decided not to go to that today I am completely free. Feels nice to be off for the day. I think I needed one. It would be nicer if I was alone or if it was just Garret and me but I'll enjoy what I can get right now.
I woke up way too early this morning. Garret's alarm went off at 8:30 and I have been up since then. I just can't get back to sleep. So I laid in bed waiting for Aimee to leave so I could get up and go pee. Now I'm sitting in bed on my laptop. Considering getting up now, showering and getting dressed. I probably should, especially since my stomach is making it very clear that it is hungry. Not sure what to have for lunch. Nothing sounds all that great. Ok, time to go and start my day. Cheers.
I also have a boyfriend who is mad at me. He is mad at me for doing housework even though I am sick. I went to take the trash out Wednesday and since the litter box needed to be changed I did that too and put some dishes away. He was mad cause he said the dishes and the litter box weren't my job and I shouldn't have to do other people's work for them especially since I am sick. He is probably right but I don't care. He needed to be done and since I was up and doing things anyway I figured I might as well do it. He also doesn't what me to have to cook. I offered to make spaghetti and meatballs for us today and he said no. I'm not completely useless yet. I could understand this if I was throwing up or so dizzy I couldn't walk straight but I'm not. And I hate feeling useless.
Mel is supposed to be in Farmington today so I am going to try and hang out with her today. Not sure where she is or how to get a hold of her though since she no longer has her phone. She told me to get on AIM last night but by the time I did she wasn't on. I think I will blame work for that one.
I am all done with my SED class now so I am not planning on going today. I got all my points so there isn't any need to and I probably could use a day to get stuff done around here, try to relax and see Mel. Since I have decided not to go to that today I am completely free. Feels nice to be off for the day. I think I needed one. It would be nicer if I was alone or if it was just Garret and me but I'll enjoy what I can get right now.
I woke up way too early this morning. Garret's alarm went off at 8:30 and I have been up since then. I just can't get back to sleep. So I laid in bed waiting for Aimee to leave so I could get up and go pee. Now I'm sitting in bed on my laptop. Considering getting up now, showering and getting dressed. I probably should, especially since my stomach is making it very clear that it is hungry. Not sure what to have for lunch. Nothing sounds all that great. Ok, time to go and start my day. Cheers.
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
Getting Better
I went to the Health Center Monday and of course when I got there my temperature was normal. I had waited to see if it went back up before I went and when it did go back up, I went. At least the nurse was helpful. She gave me some decongestants and said I most likely did not have swine flu. She said it seemed to be mostly sinus stuff. All good news. She said that I should be fine but to come back in if any of my symptoms got worse. I haven't taken my temperature since then but I think I'm fine. My throat though hurt really bad all day yesterday and I started coughing. My cough has certainly gotten worse since then. And my voice isn't very great either. Hopefully, it will go away. I really don't want to have to go back to the Health Center. People are already looking at me with dirty looks and wondering if I could make them seriously sick.
The good news is that I have had plenty of time to get ahead on homework. Sunday I did my essay for Sabine and did all the reading for this week. I took a bath Monday night and read poetry. I finished all of the reading for my poetry class for the week while in there and did some extra. Then yesterday while at work I started working on my reading for my poetry class next week. Then this morning I got the email from Clarissa of all the reading for Thursday so I did it while sitting in bed. It was pretty quick and easy. That leaves with plenty of time to hang out with Lindsey tonight and relax. I just have to work on stuff for next week. Mostly poetry and Content Lit cause we will be doing group presentations in American texts and I'm done with SED. I am just going to class today to pass in my reflective evaluation.
I should start working on my final paper for Poetry and my project for American texts since I seem to have some time. The other part of me says I shouldn't worry about that until I start feeling even better. Meaning stop coughing. There is also a lot of stuff at the apartment that I need/want to do. Like take the trash out, change the cat's litter, make my bed, clean off my dresser, do some laundry, pick up my school books and things, clean the closet, and set up the box for my TV or try to anyway. I'm looking forward to having the apartment to myself over Christmas break. It means I can do those things and maybe decorate for Christmas a little. I also have a ton of people to buy for this year. I mean there is always the usual mom, dad, David, Kelly, Nick, Jamie, Jason but there is also Garret, Kayla, Lindsey, secret santa at work, kitten and maybe Tim and Aimee. I'm not really sure if I should buy them Christmas presents or not. I feel like it is rude and wrong to not do so but at the same time, they hate me. They're not going to feel obligated to do anything for me so why should I feel obligated to do anything for them? But I do. I live with them. Rawr.
The good news is that I have had plenty of time to get ahead on homework. Sunday I did my essay for Sabine and did all the reading for this week. I took a bath Monday night and read poetry. I finished all of the reading for my poetry class for the week while in there and did some extra. Then yesterday while at work I started working on my reading for my poetry class next week. Then this morning I got the email from Clarissa of all the reading for Thursday so I did it while sitting in bed. It was pretty quick and easy. That leaves with plenty of time to hang out with Lindsey tonight and relax. I just have to work on stuff for next week. Mostly poetry and Content Lit cause we will be doing group presentations in American texts and I'm done with SED. I am just going to class today to pass in my reflective evaluation.
I should start working on my final paper for Poetry and my project for American texts since I seem to have some time. The other part of me says I shouldn't worry about that until I start feeling even better. Meaning stop coughing. There is also a lot of stuff at the apartment that I need/want to do. Like take the trash out, change the cat's litter, make my bed, clean off my dresser, do some laundry, pick up my school books and things, clean the closet, and set up the box for my TV or try to anyway. I'm looking forward to having the apartment to myself over Christmas break. It means I can do those things and maybe decorate for Christmas a little. I also have a ton of people to buy for this year. I mean there is always the usual mom, dad, David, Kelly, Nick, Jamie, Jason but there is also Garret, Kayla, Lindsey, secret santa at work, kitten and maybe Tim and Aimee. I'm not really sure if I should buy them Christmas presents or not. I feel like it is rude and wrong to not do so but at the same time, they hate me. They're not going to feel obligated to do anything for me so why should I feel obligated to do anything for them? But I do. I live with them. Rawr.
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