Dear Isaac,
Yeah, I want to give you a second chance. The question is how can I? It wouldn't really be a second chance. It be the 1 millionth. Maybe I should call it quits. Maybe I should just stick to my guns. And give up on you. But everyone else gave up on you. How can I?
Dani
Wednesday, November 24, 2010
Day # 21 Someone I Judged By Their First Impression
Dear Carmon,
So we're not friends. And we never have been friends. However, I need to admit something to you. In high school when I first met you and saw the people you hung out with I judged you. I judged wrong. Later on in high school I had a creative writing class with you and that was when I realized it. You weren't an air head like the people you hung out with. And you weren't like he preps whose every thought was about when the next party would be. You were different. You were deeper than that. And funny. And nice. And friendly and kind. Maybe we aren't friends, but that isn't because of how I judged you. Its more because I avoided your friends and that meant avoiding you unless you were alone. But I have no problem with you. I want you to know that you are an aquaintance that when I see I don't cross the road to avoid. I don't mind stopping to chit chat with you. And I certainly wouldn't mind hanging out some time. I want you to know that I think you're alright.
Sincerely,
Dani
So we're not friends. And we never have been friends. However, I need to admit something to you. In high school when I first met you and saw the people you hung out with I judged you. I judged wrong. Later on in high school I had a creative writing class with you and that was when I realized it. You weren't an air head like the people you hung out with. And you weren't like he preps whose every thought was about when the next party would be. You were different. You were deeper than that. And funny. And nice. And friendly and kind. Maybe we aren't friends, but that isn't because of how I judged you. Its more because I avoided your friends and that meant avoiding you unless you were alone. But I have no problem with you. I want you to know that you are an aquaintance that when I see I don't cross the road to avoid. I don't mind stopping to chit chat with you. And I certainly wouldn't mind hanging out some time. I want you to know that I think you're alright.
Sincerely,
Dani
Thursday, November 4, 2010
We Interrupted Your Regularly Scheduled Programming to Bring You Breaking News
I saw the GI doctor yesterday. Basically my life sucks. She doesn't really know what is wrong with me either. I don't know what I was thinking, hoping that she would have some magical answer to all of my problems. Basically I feel like crap. For many reasons.
1) They weighed me at the doctors. I now weigh 170 pounds. That's right I gained 10 pounds. So much for going to the gym.
2) On Monday I am skipping my English class so I can go back to Waterville so they can knock me out and stick a scope down my throat so they can see exactly what is wrong with me. Then I am going to wait a week before hearing back from the doctor (this probably means I will call them a week and a half after because like most doctors they won't bother to call me) with the results. Hopefully, they will then have some idea on how to make me better.
3) Just to rub salt in the wound, on my way home from Waterville I got pulled over by the Deputy Sheriff. I had a light out on my high beams. Yeah. That is why he felt he should pull me over. Now I have 3 days to get it fixed. Wonderful.
4) I came home and my stomach decided it needed to hurt, a lot. Apparently it decided it didn't hurt enough as it was. So I didn't get any sleep last night. And neither did Garret because his stomach was acting up too.
5) Now I have to go to two classes today that I don't really give a farts butt about.
6) I tried to nap but I can't. I just spent the time crying.
7) I am exhausted and grouchy and in a terrible mood that I can't break. And it is raining and cold.
8) I have a meeting I have to go to at 1:30 for a group project so even if I could skip class today I won't because I have a meeting in that building anyway that I will feel terrible if I miss it.
9) I am loathing myself a little bit for being fat and weak.
I am sure this list could go on but reason number 9 is telling me to stop. Also, reason is kicking in and telling me I should eat. All I have had today since I woke up has been wintergreen mints. But I'm not hungry and nothing sounds good and I am fat. Maybe I will skip lunch too. I really just want to lay here in my bed all day and do nothing.
1) They weighed me at the doctors. I now weigh 170 pounds. That's right I gained 10 pounds. So much for going to the gym.
2) On Monday I am skipping my English class so I can go back to Waterville so they can knock me out and stick a scope down my throat so they can see exactly what is wrong with me. Then I am going to wait a week before hearing back from the doctor (this probably means I will call them a week and a half after because like most doctors they won't bother to call me) with the results. Hopefully, they will then have some idea on how to make me better.
3) Just to rub salt in the wound, on my way home from Waterville I got pulled over by the Deputy Sheriff. I had a light out on my high beams. Yeah. That is why he felt he should pull me over. Now I have 3 days to get it fixed. Wonderful.
4) I came home and my stomach decided it needed to hurt, a lot. Apparently it decided it didn't hurt enough as it was. So I didn't get any sleep last night. And neither did Garret because his stomach was acting up too.
5) Now I have to go to two classes today that I don't really give a farts butt about.
6) I tried to nap but I can't. I just spent the time crying.
7) I am exhausted and grouchy and in a terrible mood that I can't break. And it is raining and cold.
8) I have a meeting I have to go to at 1:30 for a group project so even if I could skip class today I won't because I have a meeting in that building anyway that I will feel terrible if I miss it.
9) I am loathing myself a little bit for being fat and weak.
I am sure this list could go on but reason number 9 is telling me to stop. Also, reason is kicking in and telling me I should eat. All I have had today since I woke up has been wintergreen mints. But I'm not hungry and nothing sounds good and I am fat. Maybe I will skip lunch too. I really just want to lay here in my bed all day and do nothing.
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