I saw the GI doctor yesterday. Basically my life sucks. She doesn't really know what is wrong with me either. I don't know what I was thinking, hoping that she would have some magical answer to all of my problems. Basically I feel like crap. For many reasons.
1) They weighed me at the doctors. I now weigh 170 pounds. That's right I gained 10 pounds. So much for going to the gym.
2) On Monday I am skipping my English class so I can go back to Waterville so they can knock me out and stick a scope down my throat so they can see exactly what is wrong with me. Then I am going to wait a week before hearing back from the doctor (this probably means I will call them a week and a half after because like most doctors they won't bother to call me) with the results. Hopefully, they will then have some idea on how to make me better.
3) Just to rub salt in the wound, on my way home from Waterville I got pulled over by the Deputy Sheriff. I had a light out on my high beams. Yeah. That is why he felt he should pull me over. Now I have 3 days to get it fixed. Wonderful.
4) I came home and my stomach decided it needed to hurt, a lot. Apparently it decided it didn't hurt enough as it was. So I didn't get any sleep last night. And neither did Garret because his stomach was acting up too.
5) Now I have to go to two classes today that I don't really give a farts butt about.
6) I tried to nap but I can't. I just spent the time crying.
7) I am exhausted and grouchy and in a terrible mood that I can't break. And it is raining and cold.
8) I have a meeting I have to go to at 1:30 for a group project so even if I could skip class today I won't because I have a meeting in that building anyway that I will feel terrible if I miss it.
9) I am loathing myself a little bit for being fat and weak.
I am sure this list could go on but reason number 9 is telling me to stop. Also, reason is kicking in and telling me I should eat. All I have had today since I woke up has been wintergreen mints. But I'm not hungry and nothing sounds good and I am fat. Maybe I will skip lunch too. I really just want to lay here in my bed all day and do nothing.
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