Dear Alice,
Yeah, after all this time you are still my best friend. We don't talk as much as I would like and we see each other maybe a few times a year but for some reason that doesn't matter. Whenever we get back together we pick up right where we left off. We can still finish each other's thoughts. we an still make each other laugh until we cry. And we can still talk all day and night long without being bored. Most important though is that there have been no times in our lives when we haven't been there for each other. Ever since 8th grade at Chelsea school we have been friends. We have supported and loved each other. Even when we didn't agree or like the choices the other was making.
You were there at the football game when I first realized something was wrong with my relationship with Isaac. And I was there when your last boyfriend was showing all the signs of being a jerk. I am here now too. I wish I could tell you that I worry about you and why.
I worry because you dropped out of school. I know it was expensive and you couldn't afford vet school. There had to be some way you could have continued going though. I worry because of Jeremy. I know you trust him but I don't. He has proven in every past relationship that he can't be trusted and that makes me worry about you, about your heart. I worry about your future. I hope you will not be stuck working at AC More and place like it your whole life. I want you to fulfill your dream of being a vet. I know it seems unrealistic but it only becomes more unrealistic the more you put off working towards it. I want you to be with a boy that gives you no reason to worry, who takes away all of your worries. I want you to have a job you love, a man you love and a life you love.
You seem to be so angry and frustrated when we talk. I wish you could see that the stupid girls, and their drama would go away if you let the cause of the drama go. Jeremy is the reason all that drama is in your life. I know you can do better. I know you deserve better. I wish he could be the man you think he can be but I just don't see it. And the proof is in front of your eyes. It is why those girls lurk around waiting for you two to end so they can sweep in.
I love you Alice Casey. You are my best friend. I hope someday you find everything you are looking for.
Love,
Dani
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
30 Day Challenge
Alright, so because I haven't been good about keeping this updated about my life I am going to try this writing exercise. I have to write a letter, one a day for 30 days. The letters are to the people below. Hopefully this goes ok. Wish me luck!
Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don't talk to as much as you'd like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you've drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that's not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror
Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don't talk to as much as you'd like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you've drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that's not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
I Didn't Sleep Well
I didn't sleep very well last night or the night before. Its strange how my body seems to know when he is and isn't there. One more night of restless sleep and then he will be home.
(The rollover text for the comic is "Sweet unintersecting dreams!)
Monday, August 23, 2010
Made Me Smile
Tough girls come from Georgia, Sweet girls come from Alabama. But We Maine girls have fire & ice in our blood. We can ride four wheelers, be a princess, throw left hooks and drink with the boys..and if we have an opinion, you know you're gonna hear it!! Repost if you are a true Maine girl!
Friday, August 20, 2010
The Good Things in Life
Facebook and blogger seem to be filled with lists of all the good things in people's lives. I am obviously not the only person who has been focused on the bad in life. I think now that I have gotten some good news I am finally ready for a change in perspective, too see all the good things too.
1) It went away. Whatever was wrong with my body that caused me to have to go to the doctor's so much last month is gone. It made me miserable but my body fought it off and now it is gone. I am lucky it is gone even if I had to go back to the doctors and make calls for so long. There are other people not as lucky as me.
2) I have a job. I may complain about Staples a lot because some of the people who shop there are mean but I have a job and not just a job. I have a job where there are people who care about my health and safety. Where people know I always do my best so when I start needing help they are more than willing to give me that help.
3) I have an apartment and it is all my own. I only have to share it with the people I want to share it with.
4) I have an amazing boyfriend. I don't think I could ever tell him enough how thankful I am to have him around.
5) I have the best kitty ever. She is sweet and gentle.
6) I have a really good family. Sometimes they annoy me they care about me so much.
7) I love my school. I love the University of Maine in Farmington. I love the professors, most of the people in those classes, I love what I am learning, I love the atmosphere of the campus. I could easily imagine myself living here in a more permanent way at some point in my life.
8) Not only do I love the school but I also love the town. I love that even though there is a Walmart and a Hannaford here it still manages to feel very small town to me. I love how safe it feels here and how nice everyone is. I love the sights and sounds.
9) I have food. There are a lot of people in the world who are struggling while I have plenty. I am thankful to be able to feed and clothe myself.
10) I found this amazing series of books to read to keep me occupied this summer. I am thankful to not feel as bored, lonely and depressed as last summer.
11) Steve. I am realizing more and more lately how much he really is like family. I owe him a lot.
12) Mel. Not only has reading kept me occupied this summer but so has Mel. It is good to have a real friend near by to talk to and hang out with. Pretty sure I would have gone crazy without her.
13) I am very thankful to have health insurance even if it is a pain in my butt more often than not. I would not be able to pay for all the medical bills I have probably racked up otherwise.
14) Barnes and Nobel online discounts and sales for helping me find deals on my books. You gotta celebrate the little things sometimes.
15) the ability to read and write. They are my escapes from everything and without them I would not be me.
1) It went away. Whatever was wrong with my body that caused me to have to go to the doctor's so much last month is gone. It made me miserable but my body fought it off and now it is gone. I am lucky it is gone even if I had to go back to the doctors and make calls for so long. There are other people not as lucky as me.
2) I have a job. I may complain about Staples a lot because some of the people who shop there are mean but I have a job and not just a job. I have a job where there are people who care about my health and safety. Where people know I always do my best so when I start needing help they are more than willing to give me that help.
3) I have an apartment and it is all my own. I only have to share it with the people I want to share it with.
4) I have an amazing boyfriend. I don't think I could ever tell him enough how thankful I am to have him around.
5) I have the best kitty ever. She is sweet and gentle.
6) I have a really good family. Sometimes they annoy me they care about me so much.
7) I love my school. I love the University of Maine in Farmington. I love the professors, most of the people in those classes, I love what I am learning, I love the atmosphere of the campus. I could easily imagine myself living here in a more permanent way at some point in my life.
8) Not only do I love the school but I also love the town. I love that even though there is a Walmart and a Hannaford here it still manages to feel very small town to me. I love how safe it feels here and how nice everyone is. I love the sights and sounds.
9) I have food. There are a lot of people in the world who are struggling while I have plenty. I am thankful to be able to feed and clothe myself.
10) I found this amazing series of books to read to keep me occupied this summer. I am thankful to not feel as bored, lonely and depressed as last summer.
11) Steve. I am realizing more and more lately how much he really is like family. I owe him a lot.
12) Mel. Not only has reading kept me occupied this summer but so has Mel. It is good to have a real friend near by to talk to and hang out with. Pretty sure I would have gone crazy without her.
13) I am very thankful to have health insurance even if it is a pain in my butt more often than not. I would not be able to pay for all the medical bills I have probably racked up otherwise.
14) Barnes and Nobel online discounts and sales for helping me find deals on my books. You gotta celebrate the little things sometimes.
15) the ability to read and write. They are my escapes from everything and without them I would not be me.
Thursday, August 19, 2010
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
Good News?
After everything that has been happening with my body the past few weeks I think I have some good news. I went to see the OB/GYN today. First, he took a look with one of those scope things they stick inside of you. That hurts. Then he did an ultra sound with this big rod thing that they put right inside your vagina so they can see everything. Everything looked normal and nothing hurt. Then he did an exam to see if it hurt to move my cervix and it didn't. At all. He said everything looked normal and gave me a clean bill of health. He said it is possible there was something there but it is gone now. He thinks that I may have had a sist on one of my overaies and that it has dissolved away now. If I have any more pain though, I am to call and make another appointment. I think this is good news. I think this means everything is ok. I think I have nothing to worry about in that area anymore. I think now all I need to worry about is my stomach. After everything that has been going on this feels kind of anti-climatic.
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