Happy Dream?

When I am with you the world is on fire. I have never been happier and it isn't hard to forget all my doubts. But when we are apart and I am alone again they all come swimming back into focus.

How I Feel

I’ve been trying to write you a poem. Something to capture just how I feel about you right now. Something to show myself many years from now so I may forever remember exactly how I feel about you right this moment in time. I can’t. Words aren’t enough. You’ve made this poet speechless. These words, any words just are not good enough. There is no word to describe this. Love no longer covers it. Is there some feeling better than love? Some word to express a feeling more than the strongest most potent feeling on Earth? If there is I don’t know what it is. I just know that is how I feel about you.

Simply Holding Hands

I keep staring at the picture of us holding hands. I don't know why I find it so beautiful. It is simple. Holding hands is such a simple show of affection and love. I can't remember the last time I wanted to hold someone's hand as much as I want to hold yours. It's a nice feeling.

Women Wish

Women wish to be loved not because they are pretty, or good, or well bred, or graceful, or intelligent, but because they are themselves.
~Henri Frederic Amiel~

Holding Hands

There is something
So beautiful
In
Interlocking fingers.

I want to
Hold your hand forever,
As the world
Goes rushing by us.

Happiness

Sometimes I am so happy that I feel like I am going to burst. Sometimes I am so happy that when I look back at my past I want to cry. Sometimes I am so happy I want to do a silly little dance. Sometimes I am so happy I want to shout it out from the tallest building in the world. Sometimes I am so happy I think I must be dreaming and I pinch myself to make sure I am still awake.

I was in Boston yesterday. BOSTON! I spent the day in your car and the night in your arms. I woke up this morning still in slight disbelief that this could be real, that this could be my life. I have always wanted to travel, just to see things. And now I'm doing it. Because of you I'm doing it. I have found what I was missing before, a fellow comrade, a traveler, an adventurer, a friend, a kindred spirit.

I was happy with my life when I met you. It was starting to look more like how I had always hoped it would. But I find that all of my happiest moments are with you. So please forgive me when I have a hard time letting go. I never want it to end. I'm still looking for way to hold onto it for a little bit longer. And every time I have to let go again it's a little bit harder.

I'm not saying I never want us to be a part. That would be crazy. I want everything for you. I want you to have a job you love, friends you enjoy seeing and somewhere you can lay your head that isn't stressful. I want you to still go to guys night and mow your mom's lawn and go to anime conventions and concerts. I just wish that when we parted it would be brief and because we wanted to. I wish that we didn't have to plan when we would see each other next or figure things out.

Until then I will take what I have. Pure happiness that you're in my life at all. And a tenacious need to see you as often as possible. I love you.

Possibilities

When I look back at the last 4 years of my life I'm disappointed. College was supposed to be hard work but it was also supposed to be fun and exciting, a new adventure. There was plenty of hard work but where was the adventure?

December of my last year I had my heartbroken. I thought it was the end of me. It was an end but not the one I thought. It was the end of being held back. And it was the beginning of a whole new adventure. Sure I lost a boy. But I gained back my freedom, my independence, my zest for life, my thirst for adventure.

When I look back at the last 4 years I see so many missed opportunities. When I look ahead, into my future, I see a second chance. I see possibilities. And I intend to hold onto them no matter what. I intend to take advantage of every opportunity. I intend to enjoy myself and have the most fun of my entire life.

After all, you only live once, right?