Second Post as Promised

So earlier this afternoon I wrote a very short post and a new poem because I was in a hurry to get to work. I have returned now to write a longer post as promised.

Today and yesterday I have been completely unmotivated. My stomach hurts and I am tired but despite this I worked through it and got a lot more accomplished than I thought I would. I am pretty proud of myself for that. Unfortunately, I have completely given up on the roommate. I know that I can no longer speak to her or sometimes be in the same room with her without worrying that she will say something and I will escalate things. So I have decided to just not deal with her at all. It is that or beat her to a pulp. I don't know why I have such a strong reaction to her but I do. I am terrified of what she will say to me next. This is far from my most shining moment. I am pretty disappointed with myself for not being able to come up with anything better but I really have tried everything. I've tried addressing the problem(she says she feels attacked), I have tried being her friend and ignoring it(this just makes me bitter and angry) and I have tried just being her roommate but this last one just leaves me feeling like she is using me. So i just give up.

On the bright side I have made some newish friends. I have been sharing food with Kristen upstairs who is someone I have been friends with but not very close to. I have also been hanging out with Lindsey and I really like hanging with her. In fact I even asked her if maybe she might want to go on a road trip with me to New York to visit my cousin, Coty, some weekend. I think I would have so much fun talking and hanging out in the car with her. I have been thinking too that I need to take a weekend to spend time alone with Garret just us and do as little work as possible and of course leave the bed as little as possible. And lest but not least I need to spend a weekend with my dad, my step-mom, my little brothers and my grandmother.

Ok, it is time to go. Garret is eager to get to sleep. We are very tired.