Taking the Bad in With the Good

I'm supposed to be making pancakes right now in order to satisfy Garret's need to keep me healthy and happy and of course to satisfy what seems to be his ever present hunger. The boy eats all day and can still eat! Anyway, I just thought I would take some time to write a little today since I haven't written anything since the 1st. Maybe one of my New Year's resolutions should have been to write more. I have just been very busy writing and being happy. Very, very happy. I don't like work anymore than I did before but I certainly like being home more. I spend most nights curled up with Garret watching reruns of House, snacking on anything we can find and just relaxing. I love being home with him. I love cuddling with him. Things are most certainly quieter at home now and more relaxed. I don't worry as much. I'm not angry or scared or nervous everyday.

Things between Garret and I are better too. I don't complain anymore. Or cry because I can't hold my tongue anymore or because people are being cruel to me for reasons I can't understand. Things are good. When this all started I worried that there was no way to go back. That the whole situation may have caused permanent damage to me or to my relationship with Garret or my relations with my landlords but now things seem so very good. It is hard to worry about those things now when everything is so good. So I haven't.

I am mainly now concentrating on what happens next. Amy and Tim get their stuff out of the other room Saturday. Garret will be here and I won't. Garret says it is a little childish of me to be so insistent on not being here but I can't help it. I know that if I was here the only things I could think of would be bad. I don't want anything to affect my current happiness. School will start on the 19th which means my life will be super busy again but I know I will be excited for the challenge when it gets here. Once the semester starts weekly dinners with Lindsey will resume this time on Thursdays. I am very excited for them! I don't know what I will do without them and her in the fall while she is studying abroad. She has been such a great friend to me. I hope I can return the kindness in full. Before I know it summer will be here and it will be a new apartment, maybe a new cat and I'll be in my last year at UMF.

Life does have it's hardships though. Mel and my old friend Heather are having hard times. I offered Heather a place to escape here if she should need it. I just hope she can handle being home before she goes to Australia. And I hope the time abroad is good for her. She has promised me lots of pictures of beautiful Australian men so maybe it will be fun for me too! I wish there was more I could do to help Mel. She asked me to take in her two cats for her but I really just can't do that right now. It'd be unfair of me to ask Garret to take care of them when I'm not here which is often with work. Plus I know how attached I would get. I can't handle getting attached again so soon after losing my own cat.

I was secretly holding out hopes that maybe I would get my own cat back at the end of next semester when Amy and Tim realized that they didn't really have somewhere to take her to live with one of them but all those hopes are gone now. Tim and Garret decided that we wouldn't be splitting the pet deposit 3 ways and instead Tim gave Garret money for the cat expenses we paid for. More proof that she truly isn't my cat anymore.

It will all work out OK in the end though. The world has a way of setting itself right one way or another. Until then I'm just going to keep being happy. Keep taking the bad in with the good. Keep smiling and laughing and enjoying all the good parts of my life.