Would you like to live the next 2-3 weeks for me while I just not move? I don't want to go to class, I don't want to do homework, I don't want to think about the two papers, the portfolio, the project and the test I have coming up. I don't want to go to work. I don't want them to call me while I am in class anymore or any other time for that matter. They do it often. I don't want to be stressed or tired or worried or busy or think about any of this any more.
I just found out in class today that I am not on top of things the way i think I am. Trust me that isn't anything new. I always feel like there is something I forgot to do. I felt that way last night and I was right. I found out that I was supposed to write 5 article summaries for my English class and I only wrote 4 and today was the last day that you could hand one in. Yeah. I started writing them as soon as I found out they would be required and I thought I would have them done early and now I find out that I am behind which is what I was trying to avoid. Fuck my life. I wrote the professor an email so hopefully I can still fix this mess I have put myself in because he knows I am a good student and I have been doing one for every reading we have been assigned to do one expect for the last 3 cause I thought I had fulfilled my requirement. And now I have fucked up.
So fix this mess hopefully, do the reading for my night class tomorrow, do the reading for Wednesday, work Wednesday, create a creative piece for my poetry project due Thursday, do an interview for my poetry project due Thursday, do the readings for Friday, work Friday, work Saturday, work Sunday, do the readings for Monday, do the NCTE inbox response for Tuesday, do the portfolio due Tuesday, give the symposium presentation Wednesday, do the readings for Wednesday, do my poetry project response due Thursday, do the readings for Friday, do the essay due Friday, work Friday, work Saturday, work Sunday, and then it is finals week. I have a paper due Wednesday and a test that day. Then I have to attend class on Tuesday I believe and then I think the semester will be over. I just want this to all be done. Just done.
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Now is time for me to shove your words back down your throat. Everything is going to work out. You just need to be confident. If you have any doubt then you WILL fall. Be strong, know you have a ton of people supporting you and, if you need to, cut a few hours off your work time to finish the semester. Just tell them you don't think you will be able to focus at work, or Hell... play sick. Do whatever you have to do to make things work and make life as easy as possible. If I could make things better, easier and over with faster for you I would. But since I can't I am doing what you asked me to do.
Have no doubt, be confident and believe in yourself. It will all work out in the end.
I love you.
Today's word: crance
Stupid site says I didn't comment... but it is clearly right there. Duhface, blogger.
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Today's word (#2): unlik
Thanks. I love you too. I got an email back from the professor shortly after saying that I could make up the one I messed up or do the one that was due yesterday and have it in his mailbox by this morning because if I did that he would have to assume I passed it yesterday and would therefore not be late. I redid my bad one and put it in his mailbox. So problem solved. I am feeling a little more in control of my life now.
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