Found out Friday that my friend's dad died. He had cancer and it was terminal so the family knew it was coming. It must have still been painful though. I love my friend very much but I wish he would just be honest with me. he says he is ok, that he is fine. I wish he would just say I am mess right now, you're right, please get me as far away as possible. But he won't. Not sure if I should barge in on his grief or not. He is the type of person that pushes people away when he is having a hard time.
He always tells me that a thing only affects you if you let it affect you. And that it doesn't have to. I don't know if I buy that. How do you let someone in and not let the pain of losing them affect you? How do you grow and learn if the world has no affect on you? In other ways, his philosophy makes sense though. All those people who I don't like shouldn't affect me because they don't have to unless I let them. And I shouldn't let them. I hope he is letting enough people who want to help him, in.
I wish there was something else I could do.
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I know what it is like not being able to help in any way aside from 'I am here if you need me'. It blows.
Today's Word: pocows
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