Hate You?

Every morning I wake up
And for a split second
I hate you

Every time I write a story
I pick you as the villain
Only to change it in the end

Every time I look in the mirror
I hear your words
Echoing in my head

If you were anyone else
I’d hate you
But your not

I want to hate you
I want to yell and scream
At you
I want to punch you
I want to kick you
I want to hurt you
Like you hurt me

I try
Every day
To hate you

I think of all the things you have said
Only to remember
The sweet I miss you’s
And the even sweeter I love you’s

I think of all the things you did
Only to remember
The smile you had just for me
And the comfort in your touch

I think of how you scared me
Only to remember
You were scared too

And I think of how you hurt me
Only to remember
I hurt you too

And its for these reasons
That no matter how much I try
Or how much I want to
I can’t
And Never will
Hate You