Day #14 Someone I Have Drifted Away From

Dear Becky,

Did you know it was going to be your name in that first line? In second grade and onward we were best friends. But sometime between when I moved to Chelsea to now we drifted apart. I am not sure if it was the distance or if it was your breaking off your friendship with Nikki that caused the rift but I do know that it is there. Maybe we have just grown up and apart. Maybe we just want different things in life. Maybe I am just too focused to remember old acquaintances anymore. I'm not really sure.

You are getting married. To a man that I have never even met. We always used to introduce our boys to each other. We used to size each other's boys up and give each other feedback. I don't think you have met Garret and I know that I have not met your fiance. I am not sure that I have the right to be an important person for him to meet anymore. I haven't really talked to you since you texted me to say that you two were engaged. And that was random. I don't even remember if you told me you were dating him.

Maybe then it is the communication between us that has caused the rift. But I feel like it is deeper than that. I didn't like that you stuck up for your boyfriend over your friend, Nikki. I don't care what he said. She said he came at her and she is your best friend. Friends before boys. If you hadn't picked him over her then maybe you two would still be friends. Maybe she and I would still be friends.

Maybe I am wrong to think that you made the wrong call. I have certainly drifted away from Nikki too. I think that she is way too dramatic for me. And I don't really want to deal with her. Maybe that was how you felt about her too. Maybe you just caught on before I did.

Maybe the whole distance between us is all my fault. I am trying to create a life for myself. Something new and as different as possible from the life I had in Orland. Maybe that I am pushing all the little reminders of my first hometown out of my brain. Maybe it is that I don't want reminders of what I once was hanging around too much. Maybe I just am trying too hard to bury the past.

Maybe I am over thinking this. All I know for sure is that we aren't the same people anymore. And I am not sure that we are best friends any more.

Your Friend,

Dani