Am I Burning Out?

I am starting to think that maybe I am doing a little too much. I did a lot of school and work last semester and while I am not doing nearly as many hours this semester I am getting tired of always being stressed and feeling like I am never caught up on homework. I am tired a lot of the time and I spend a lot of time wishing I could read for myself or watch tv without having to read a book for school at the same time. I read for school all the time. School reading is so time consuming because. There is always 150 pages or more do at a time and just as I finish that I get assigned another 150 pages or so to do. When do professors expect me to have time to do all of this reading? Do they realize that reading is the homework that takes up the most of my time? I am sitting here writing this because I need to vent and while I am sitting here I am thinking I need to read Gulliver's Travels which is 250 pages and due Wednesday. I'm on on page 98 because I have been at work all weekend.

I keep thinking that maybe I should try to get a little bit more time off from work but then I realize that by cutting my hours down from 32 a week to 26 or 28 I have cut my paycheck from almost 250 to about 180. It doesn't seem like much but it seems like a lot because I buy 60 dollars or more worth of groceries every week and I pay gas for my car and insurance and electricity and internet and rent. Most of that comes out of that pay check. I need to make money so I can save my loan money so I don't get into debt after school but I also need to have time to breathe and do school work and sleep so I can get good grades.

Most people stress because they put off their homework. I stress when I don't manage to get all of the homework through to Friday done on Monday because I start to worry I won't get it done on time. I have no idea how I am managing to keep up and I'm really not sure how much longer I can do it.

I keep telling myself I just have March, April and a little bit of May left till school is over for the summer and that I can make it through that. Hopefully, I can. I have this coming Sunday off to be on campus to see a movie for class so that will be a nice break. I asked for the Sunday after that off too so I could go to dad's but they have me closing the Saturday before that so it probably isn't going to happen. I'll probably just end up enjoying those two Sundays off. Then I get April vacation which I think I will just not tell work about so that I can have some days off that week and this time I think I will try to spend more of break relaxing and less of it driving everywhere on Earth. Then of course there is the 24th of April. That is my Praxis II test which I asked for off cause I am not going to be in the mood to work that day after getting up early and taking a two hour test at 7:30 in the morning. That is both a nice day off and a stressful day. I really need to pass it. I don't want to spend another 80 to 130 dollars on that test. Its 130 the first time cause there is a 50 dollar registration fee. If I retake it within a year I don't have to pay that again but still. Lets not spend more than we have to.

I don't know. I know I need the money from work if I want to still be able to pay my bills without running out of money from school loans. I also know that I am exhausted all the time. And stressed. I feel like laying in bed all day and not moving. Just sleeping. I should go to bed cause I have to get up for class tomorrow and I am already exhausted from work today. I guess I still don't have any answers. Goodnight.