http://www.nytimes.com/2010/02/28/magazine/28depression-t.html?pagewanted=1
Very interesting article on depression. It got me wondering if maybe I suffer from depression. The article mentions being tired all the time and fixating on death. Both things that plague me. I can never get enough sleep lately and ever since this summer I have been thinking and thinking about death. Maybe events in my life triggered it? I certainly go over and over things and wonder what I could have done differently. I am of an obsessive nature. My brain feels it needs to repeat the events that took place with Amy and Tim all the time. Or the fights that Garret and I have had. It makes me think that maybe I have done something terribly wrong or wonder what I could have done differently. I wonder if maybe I made a mistake.
*sighs*. I was so happy for Christmas break. The happiest I have been in a long time. I had a break from school and all I worried about was work and what I was to eat that day. Garret and I spent our time lounging, cuddling and having fun. It is way more likely that I'm not depressed but rather exhausted from the stress of Staples and school on top of each other. I just need a lazy day. And I will get one soon. Sunday I don't have to work. I can spend all week getting ahead on homework and maybe I can take Sunday mostly off. Sleep sounds so good even though I didn't get out of bed till 10:20. I'm also getting close to my period so that is probably a contributing factor too. Maybe I will just do my homework and then take a nap. Yeah, that is what I will do.
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