My last few posts have been very short so I thought I would take some time to write a longer post. Really, I am just trying to not do homework. I finished the 32 pages of reading for tomorrow night's class so I think I deserve a break. Only a short one though cause I have a ton more to do before Wednesday.
I have been tired. I'm still tired. I can feel the need to slack off increasing every day. I hate spending every moment doing something because I know that if I don't I will fall behind. My professors and bosses at work say I have a strong work ethic. I say I have absolutely no life. I am doing exactly what they tell you not to do in college. I am throwing all of my energy into being a good student, a good employee, and into living on my own and leaving no time for fun. I swear that if I did not see Mel and Lindsey once every week I would go crazy. I am pretty sure they are the only reason why I haven't dropped dead for exhaustion yet.
I feel like I am an adult now and like I have been for a very long time. I miss having someone to cook and clean for me so that I could focus on school and work. I miss staying up late because it was fun. I miss late night talks with Garret. I miss being exhausted because I was up all night performing in a play. I miss getting in trouble for being up late giggling with my friends. I miss long car rides just to sit on the beach and soak up the sun all day.
I think I really just need to do nothing for a while and I don't see that happening. Even when April break gets here I am going to be doing homework because I have two books due as soon as I get back. Yeah, I have two books I have to have read over break.
Not really sure how much longer I can keep the pace up for.
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