3 days!

I am feeling a little guilty. I was doing so good, writing just about everyday. Then Thursday I didn't put a poem up with my post, I didn't write much of anything and I haven't written anything since then. I have been so tired. The last three days I have been so exhausted. Today did not help. I worked on homework all day Friday, then the next two days I spent working and today, I got up early to go to work again. I really just want to go back to bed. But I can't. I just finished my reading for tomorrow and I'm thinking that if I get a head start on stuff for Wednesday then I can spend most of tomorrow doing work on the two projects I have due for Content Lit soon. No rest for the weary huh? And this is a good time for me to do it. Garret is at SI till 8 and I have shut myself in my room with headphones on to tune everything out. The roommates' music was loud and I tried to tune it out by just turning mine up louder but I could still hear it. So I gave up and put headphones on. It was kind of fun though to have my music up really loud while I was singing very badly and organizing my Content Lit notebook so I could figure out what is due tomorrow. I'm glad I did that cause the thing I thought was due tomorrow isn't due until next Tuesday. That gives me more free time for the first draft of my more major project, which is due Thursday.

I had a pretty rough weekend. I had a very serious conversation with my friend, Steve, Friday because I have been having panic attacks about death. I'm 20 years old. Way too young to be worried about it I know but I have been. Basically we talked about energy and about why I am panicking. He seemed to think that there might be something in my life causing it. Well, I have been a little stressed about the living situation. Garret and I had my second serious conversation about that late Saturday because I couldn't sleep cause of worrying about it. He said it could be worse and that I need to just keep doing what I am doing. I think he is right. There is nothing wrong with just staying in here and keeping myself out of the situation completely as much as I possibly can. In this case it is probably the best idea. I think I need to listen to more music too. Its good background.

As for my writing, I haven't written anything. I still believe that this blog has been good for the health of my heart and soul and so I am going to go back to trying to post everyday. I am seriously hoping I can get back into the habit of it quickly. If not every day then at least every other day. I am also picking at a few new pieces. I started a new poem at work but I haven't had time to return to it yet. If I get a chance to then I will post it. I also started a short story one day in my American texts class but I'm not sure yet where that is going. So it may not go far. I would love to write a short story or a t least be working with some new, and lovable characters. I was on a very good streak with my poetry for a while there and I am hoping that with continued diligence to my craft that streak will continue. Until then here is some older writing to keep you busy. Enjoy.