Another Unsent Letter

Dear Garret,

I'm sorry. I owe you an apology too. I have also subjected you to a tense situation and you also don't deserve that. You have done nothing but love me and be there for me no matter what. I tried to be her friend for you more than for anyone else. You two seemed like you were becoming close friends and I did not want to take a friend away from you. I wanted to be her friend too. I'm sorry it didn't work out that way. My own respect for myself is more important to me than her friendship and I would have no respect for myself anymore if I continued to allow her to make me feel like shit. To make me feel like I am less than human. There are some days that when she speaks to me I feel like disappearing off the face of the Earth. It is against every fiber of my being to allow her to continue making me feel that way. I let her for a very long time. But I hate who I am when I let her do that to me. Please, forgive me when I complain about her. I just want some justice. I want her to know that she does me wrong and I want her to apologize. Instead I feel like she is making herself into the victim and I am the one committing all the crimes against her. I just want you to not see me in that way. I fear that you will hate me for this. Please, forgive me for that fear because I know it has no grounds to stand on. Please, forgive me for complaining to you when I know it does no good. Please, forgive me for ruining many evenings together by talking about the situation. Please, don't stop loving me.

Love,
Dani